Tml school reopen dah.
so boredom.zzz
no more after 12a.m go in bed everynite.LOL



aiks.it's okay!
my mood's get back now !!! sigh sigh*
sumthing cheer me up;D

no wonder much dah.feel very well too.



that's all.
Goin to hav dinner v family.


We're living in the world that's full of fool ! ahha

picts long time ago.i just found it.then post up.

I'm still rot in hse everyday.ZZ

so bored.LOL

anyway,time heals ?

nt even know.bt NUMB v it.

i'm tired enough too.

Crying not the ways to solve the problems,but it can express all my feeling inside.

躲在一角，是为自己掉泪，为我之前所做的事感到感概。

没有人晓得，没有人明白..

我不再找你，并不是我放弃继续坚持下去，而是我希望能在你心中留下最好的印象。

我...也许不想再像以前那么地堕落了

但我也学会不许再将自己的感情往心里埋..

damnit.i hope i wont be in tears anymore. :)

STILL

i shud learn to look forward.

aha.Everything'll be alright !

peepz.thanks so much yea.

I miss you like crazy,even more than words can say*

---All out of love---

I'm lying alone with my head on the phone
Thinking of you till it hurts
I know you hurt too but what else can we do
Tormented and torn part
I wish I could carry your smile in my heart
For times when my life seems so low
It would make me believe what tomorrow could bring
When today doesn't really know
Doesn't really know
I'm all out of love
I'm so lost without you
I know you were right
Believing for so long
I'm all out of love
What am I without you
I can't be too late
To say that I was so wrong
I want you toe back and carry me home
Away from these long lonely nights
I'm reaching for you
Are you feeling it too
Does the feeling seem oh so right
And what would you say
If I called on you now
And said that I can't hold on
There's no easy way it gets harder each day
Please love me or I'll be gone
I'll be gone
I'm all out of love
I'm so lost without you
I know you were right
Believing for so long
I'm all out of love
What am I without you
I can't be too late
To say that I was so wrong
Ah what are you thinking of
What are you thinking of
What are you thinking of
What are you thinking o.................f

i'm in bed after 12a.m everynite NOW.aww*

it seems so extraordinary ya? = =

bt it's really.i make it !!
 




 
The Worst.just ignore it !!!
 i love my ways.

Love.Trust.Broken.

I was so gloomy.feelin so lost.
y am i so worthless?!

I'm really dunno what to do?
just cry n cry.thinking n flash back many things.
i'll very down w/ my feeling now.wth.


many things is playing in my mind.
make me feel more & more down.
more & more unsecure.

i brought tears to dreamland last nite.
wet-ed my pillow.
I know it will keep for such a time.until i'm numb v it.


i'm complicated right now.
feelin like gonna burst.
I was trying to drunk myself just now.
Bt why not i can really feel drunk?
damn.

I forgot what's shud i do.
Not able to feel sumthing else.

Hold my breath & tears.
it's feel so cruel.



i was LOST.started last nite.
totally.
I'm mad v everything.
fell out v my family easily now.


Does it make sense?
I like can sense v what's will gonna happen.
my heart sinks.extremely.


一切早开始了

 
但却还未发生

触摸到手指
 
不代表敲动你心房
 
谁愿意失败失败再失败

谁高兴期盼期盼再期盼
 
是我不懂得珍惜
 
我是个痛也不会说出口的人
 
我是个贪心也注定要不到的人
 
你恋恋过我
 
让我深深地感动

但风轻轻的吹
 
时候到幸福却枯萎
 
我是个爱也不会说清楚的人
 
我是个懦弱也还在拼拼看的人
 
我尊重你的决定
 
但我还是掉下泪
 
痛也不说出口的我
 
忍不住掉下了眼泪..
 

或许你 以为把你的爱说清楚

就可以纠结伤害
 
但却不明白 我需要你的爱



你我都知道 有时候感情事很难说
 
很难说 爱人或朋友

会让你崩溃，有所顾虑 

不自觉地做出决定 



只有眼泪知道

多少无眠的夜里
 
我无声的在哭泣



直到爱消失我才懂得
 
去珍惜身边每个唯一
 
只是你早已离去

直到我想通 要勇敢追求自己的爱情
 
你却已经
 
不再对我留恋
 
最后的我
 
开始了一段挣扎
 

我很不想让你找到离开的理由

天空切开一道裂缝
 
直接割到我心中
 
不想装作脆弱

也不想爱得懦弱
 
其实我非常爱你不想失去你
 
难道我没有权利说我不愿意
 
可不可以任性
 
求求你不要去
 
藏在我心里 最后一句...

其实还爱你


分手到底是不是你要的结果
 
不知道是为了什么
 
还要把你无力的爱 记得那么多
 
怎么放手
 
连哭都是我的错
 
在你面前还要我怎么做
 
爱你是我的错 连结束也是我的错


现在的我才看见
 
有点心酸在我们之间
 
如此短暂的情缘
 
看着天空不让泪流下
 
不说一句埋怨
 
只是心中的感慨万千
 
我说为爱 我不够勇敢
 
在爱与不爱间 来回千万遍
 
哪怕已伤痕累累 我也不管



之前你为我做的一切，
 
我真的忽略了
 
你因为我曾经伤得很深
 
我选择了另一个他，放弃你
 
最终我还是错了

我被那一段感情伤得很深很深

让我不想再接受另一段新的开始
 

再一次 我不断地找借口拒绝你

那时候的我真的好矛盾

我怕我再受到伤害 又怕我再错失一个机会
 
我不想我一直做出令自己后悔的决定
 
但我又再次那么地自私

开始新的一年

那时的我跟W很好.算得上是有所不谈的朋友了
 
E也对我有好感
 
那时的我
 
突然发现原来我最爱的人是你，不是别人
 
当时的我也挣扎了好久
 
终于开口告诉你我的感觉

当然 你对我是有所保留的
 
毕竟我曾经那么地伤害你
 
就像朋友说的 发生了这么多事

你对我的信心显然也会减少
 
那时候的你还有了女朋友
 
某天 我为了拒绝他 你帮了我
 
我真的后悔了

当时的我根本太没有顾虑到其它事

你是有女朋友的 我根本就没理由答应你帮我

他也是我一个那么要好的朋友 我不应该这样伤害他
 
你也因为这件事 和她闹翻了 也失去了个很好的朋友
 
我错了 彻彻底底地伤害了身边的人 我失去了原本和我要好的朋友
 
也让你们对我很失望 讨厌我
 
我真的很对不起 事情发生了 也许有些事是改变不了了的

接下来的日子我们一直都有联络

我也很贪心地 奢望能得到你的爱

最终你还是选择了再次相信我

我真的很开心 同时也有所顾虑 深怕会再带给你烦恼
 
朋友却也鼓励我 如果喜欢就要自己去争取 不要再让自己后悔

终于 我也答应了你

我们开始了这段恋情

一开始 我对你真的有点冷 是因为我不懂得表达自己
 
你却还是对我很积极

我真的感觉得到
 
最近 想通了 我应该积极去对待自己的恋情
 
不准在这样敷衍一切 要勇敢表达自己

但也因为生病 好几天没去学校 失去了很多机会

在那当时 我开始觉得你有点怪怪的
 
但还是找了好多理由推翻这些想法

那天 你病了 我终于会主动找你 因为我真的很关心你

我试着要自己勇敢 努力去争取了 你感觉得到吗？
 
但那天却也成了我们最后一次以情侣的身分面对面说话
 
那天起 你对我真的变冷淡了
 
这几天的心情也随着变得很down.糟透了
 
昨晚 终于等到你的信息

但却是我最不想看到的 你真的要结束了

原来我们的开始 一直都让你很烦

你顾虑到朋友对我们的看法 不 是对我的偏见
 
你说你对我也不再像以前般那么地疯狂了
 
我哭了 因为我输了 我也终于明白为什么我会有那样的心情  

爱情里我不可能永远都是胜利者
 
之前对你的态度 我不懂得珍惜你对我的好 换来的真的就是这种结果

我不怪你 你为我做了很多 也因为这样 我为增添了很多麻烦
我没什么好抱怨的

只是觉得我很讨厌我自己 当我真的放开了
 
想要勇敢追求你我的爱 一切却已太迟了

都是我的错..


我曾想过不想这么轻易放弃

很想给自己再有一次机会争取你的爱
 
但这一切也许只是我一厢情愿

因为我不想看见你为我再承受这么多的压力

我不想再那么自私地只想着我自己

我还是得选择接受吗？

I'm really so sad.my heart's broken.

I failed to do another one perfect to you.

I hate this holiday really!!!!!!

It make me feel more worst.

cant even voice out my feeling.tmd.

just crying at the mid nite.nobody heard.

Crying without sounds.but just be in tears.

Many thing appears in my mind.n i cant stop my tears.

J.thanks for you choose to trust me agn.

even through your trust is not too long.

and we're nt have much memories since we had on.

But you had do many thing to me.

I really appreciate it well.

I will rot in hse this 1week holiday.

and guys.p/s:Don't ask my status now.

bcos i not even really know how my status now.

i cant express it all.sry.

i had change my blog's song.

366日--i found it from takumi's video.

it really touch when first time i heard.

But now not only touch.

I'll burst into tears when i hear this song quietly everynite now.

Nothing can complete me right now.

I'm still LOST myself.
Gosh.I'm STILL regret v what i had done!lmao

Still cant cheer up myself.even such a happy moments.

Drunk me pls !!!!!!!!

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p/s:I dunno why now i got sucks mood !!

But i cant even know why.

dunno how to express it all.pissed off*

this feeling killing me !!!!! damnit!

It's late.I haven want go into bed..

But now.finally i knw the reason.What's kiling me.

11.29p.m.I'm burst into tears agn right now.

Sry.I can't control myself.

I really dunno how to express my feeling now.deeply feel it.

I'm still failed to do that*

F-I-N-A-L-L-Y.It's end. you means that!

Hello.i'm here agn.

keep sick recently.i dunno why oso.

before fever and cough.

NOW flu,cough,sore throat.

so weak lar me.haih.

luckily not H1N1 nia.if not mayb wil die soon =,=

i'm so scare of sick right now.pls recover faster lar weh !!!

I dunwan sick anymore !

eat 5types  medicine 4times per day.more than i eat normal diet.lols

always absent to sch for few days bcos of sick.

stay at home more like patient.arggh !!!

sunday bought a new hp.winks*

thanks so much dad n mum !!! XD

now i'm rest at home while my hp's acc me oways.ahha

so boring at home.but seen lazy go to sch also.

how my life's goin on?! numb.

feel sleepy after eat that various medicines.Zz

goin to rest agn.

p/s:Thanks for everyone tags to care me always !!!

bye peepz.

Jznw back from IT.sumthing happens.

you're gettin terrible and exactly terrify us right now.

everytimes when you're quarrel or tryin to talk aggresively.

I cant do anything.

just forbid and fluster w/ all what you had done.

Always.you're fierce to me,bully me or whatever,I can swallow.

Can act like nothing happen or just let it be and gud v you after few days or even few hours.

You can treat me whatever you like.I don't care ! You did not fault,just bcos you're my brother.

But pls.not treat mom&dad fiercely.you're hurt them badly now.wth!

They're fondness to you.Bt how?

You never think before you do it.

What you had done is gettin too over.

We can swallow you well before,but you're the same agn n agn.

Everybody has own extent to swallow somebody.you shud knw that

you're nvr admit yr fault.

footloose,flightly,fell are what show off on you now.

intangibility w/yr change in attitude

You're always insuperable.

trial exam's start nxt week.

but you still enjoy w/ your gaming or other else thr.

But not to start yr study.You can,everybody's admit ! but just you dunwan..

Friends're everything to you,but not parent.not family!

you nvr want to accept what we had say.

She's be in tear seriously just now.You care?

You really disappointed me extremely.

I'm very stressful w/ family now.pissed off*

It doesnt first time,but just feel it deeply nw.

I'm HOT now!! fever agn? ish*

let me burn into pieces.

really hope can dissapear and free frm the hell !!!

Dear,friends.I'm terribly sorry !!!!!

I cant make it what i had promise agn.

Burst into tears ;)

I love eng.song very much now !!!! taadaa!

Sunday.goin to CheongK w/tepoh n pcing.

so sad ying cant go together.

we had fun thr.enjoy when K-time  XD

aftertat shopping for few hours then leave at 6.

take lots of picts=x

wait for the photo frm you.sista

We're long time didnt hang out 4ofus together ady.cherish*

take the next chance on ya ;D

After reach home.felt sick.

but feel ok.goin to sch ytd.

teachers call me dont go today.scary H1N1.Gosh!

So i prefer stay home n rest 1 more day.

felt better more now.i think is recover faster.yea*

goin to rest more ltr.

TakeCare well everybody !!!!